may ousted me towards a new weakness. in addition to around the clock morning sickness, my mother has been in the hospital and rehabilitation center for twenty three days. i have neglected my flowers and chickens, any personal time at all, and all else i have needed to to care for my mother and father. anyone would have done the same. knowing she was coming home, we spent eight hours at their house saturday cleaning and preparing. sunday, i had a pulled muscle in my back and i've been in bed ever since. be still, he says. be still, pray, seek, know me and the power of my strength. why - during times of weakness and of despair, do i forget to drink deep from the living water. i plea the grace of christ when i am weak, but that never negates the reality that without him, i shrivel quickly. and so i am here knowing that he needed me to be still and hear him more than i needed to save the situation, all situations, on my own.